Showing posts with label invisible illness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label invisible illness. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

When I Lost My Voice. My Story Of Living With A Chronic Illness.

Thermometer, Headache, Pain, Pills
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When I Lost My Voice.

Ladies and Gentlemen, from time to time I will touch on my story of living with an invisible illness.  I told my story on Youtube so many of you know about my illness.  It is such a struggle to have to live with pain and suffering day to day.  Today I am honestly in a depressed state because I am tired of the preparation, inability to live a normal life, the judgment from healthy people, and the life that I lived prior to being diagnosed with this illness.  For those who do not know, I have Congestive Hearth Failure, Diabetes, COPD, and Asthma.

Normally, I try to be upbeat about my illness and pretend that I am normal but normal is what I will never be because of what being ill has stolen away from me.  I have lost precious moments, time that I cannot get back.  I have to plan my medications for the day, preparing in advance for outings because I am on water pills and that can be a problem because you may not be close to public bathroom facilities.

Being ill will take a toll on you financially because you always have to think before buying anything and even though I plan everything, sometimes I want to be spontaneous. I am going on a family trip very soon and I am terrified because of all the advance planning that I will have to encounter.  The meals that I will not be able to enjoy like everyone else, the lines of people waiting to go into the ladies room.

I have lost my freedom to live the life that I wanted for myself, the opportunities that I have dreamed of. Being thankful for another day is my prayer and will never give up my faith but being ill is no walk in the park, it is a sentence that can never be acquitted.